F.E.E.L.I.N.G.C.A.L.L.E.D.L.O.V.E

i have 5 jobs.
i love wine.
i want a puppy.
i miss my friends (you).
andre's the best.

that is all.

i'm teaching dance at 4 different studios.
i have an interview for a pre-school teaching assistant job today.
rent is cheap.
i'm buying a car.
i want to go back to school.
but i don't.
the new baby is beautiful.
rachel is graduating soon.
dance here is disappointing and sad.
i want to do my own dance show.
i miss seattle.
i dislike denver.
i'm making the best of things (trying to).

so i'm dropping out of cornish and staying in denver. wham bam thank you mam.

i'm dating a boy in denver who rocks my world, and i can't imagine going to seattle with a new relationship and my new niece looming over my head.

i'm an aunt... a cool aunt. my sister had a baby girl. she's awesome.

how would you describe me in 3 words?

i'm trying to make the best of things

what's our generation's "thing"?

you know?

have beeeeen...... off?
i'm anxious.
i cry a lot.
i work too much.
i worry.
i don't want to go to school anymore.
I'm tired all of the time.
i want change, i need something to change.
new apartment?
new job?
new school?
i want to garden.
i want to do yoga.
i want to go on walks.
i want to drink coffee in the mornings, and have lazy days.
i want to play with the kittens.
i want to get a dog.
i want to cook more.
i want to spend more time with new friends.
i want to DO more things; get off the hill more often.
i want to have NO money problems.

i don't know why i still have this. livejournal feels like something from a past life.

i've been such a wreck lately. i'm sick all the time, tired all the time. i added 10 hours to my work schedule, so i work 30-40 hours a week plus school and rehearsals. i think i need to take a semester off.

my sister's having a little girl.

update:
i worked all during spring break. I worked about 30 hours in 3 days, made just enough to ba able to pay rent AND buy groceries and pay bills. it feels great. very responsible.
things with jim have gotten better, things were kinda shitty, but we talked and things are better (please?).
lists are good. i like crossing things off my list. it feels.... responsible.
the cats are good. very sweet, and very cuddly lately. they're about 8 months old now, and its amazing to think they have become such a huge part of my life in only 6 months. they're my babies. i love them.
sarah (gf) got a new haircut and it looks so good. jim's scared i'm serious about leaving him for her. (funny thats an update in my life. gotta love my girlfriend bestie.)
hats hats hats lots of hats lately.
and earrings.
i'm trying to eat healthier, mostly eat more balanced... i made a meal plan for the week (i love lists).
i did nothing i thought i would do over spring break. but its ok.
i'm getting a lot of use out of my car. i got the balls to drive to target the other day, drove so many friends to the airport so early in the morning, and picked up so many drunk friends from wallingford friday night.
i'm getting really good at parallel parking. fabulous.
thats it.
i don't want to go back to school.
i'm counting down the weeks.
i miss my old friends, where are you?

an update:
school has been pretty good.
my shows went really well, i'm glad to be done with them.
i have a show coming up on march 30, its free, you all should come.
i've been doing homework, like actually doing it, it's very nice.
i skipped modern yesterday and hung out with sarah. we got sandwiches at the honey hole, got some soup for poor sick jim, then we went to urban to look at the sale stuff and i got two new hats for $10.00. then i went to class. then i went to jims. then i went to work. then i got some more soup for jim and went back to his house and petted his head while he laid on the couch then i went home, made a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, brushed my teeth and went to bed. it was a nice day.
my knee has been hurting a lot lately... i think its the cold weather.
4.5 more days until spring break. i'm going to sleep until noon and walk around naked.
after my show on saturday, i went and babysat from 11 pm-3 pm the next day. it was awful.
i wish i didn't have so many responsibilities.
i'm getting excited for summer. i have no big plans, just hanging out mostly. working a lot. but enjoying life again. last summer was marvelous, and i hope this summer will be too.
what am i going to do with my life?
may threw up a condom the other day. that was pretty terrible.
ty has the biggest tail in the world, officially.
life is good... i'm just ready for a break from it.
i have ballet and kinese today, then work until 10, but i don't have class until 12:30 tomorrow. i love sleeping in.
i hope jim starts feeling better soon, i need someone to buy me chocolate (my ovaries are exploding, ouch).
i guess thats it....
i come on here often to see how you guys are doing because i feel like i've lost touch with so many of you.
so hi, get back in touch with me please.
k bye.

things are good.

i need c@$h though. in a serious way.

sarah, john, and all the cats are moving in directly next door to me on friday. i'm so excited. this will only encourage our habit to sit around and watch the office and drink. we will NEVER have to go outside EVER again. its the most purrfect thing to ever happen to me. i can't waaaaaaaaaaiiiit.

thinkgs with jim are wonderful. i'm getting to meet more people, and it's nice to expand my circle of friends. i do miss catcity somtimes though, on the other hand i don't think i'm very missed. life goes on.

thats just the way it is.

the kitties are getting soooo big and soo weird. ty gets dumber and dumber by the hour. its wonderful.

i guess thats about it. yep.

how are you?

making a relationship facebook official is hilarious. i can't believe how many text messages i got about it when people saw it on their news feed. yes its true, i'm in a relationship. so far so good. (he's really great)

verrrr nice thanks.

sarah (girlfriend) is hanging out tonight and we're watching arrested development and its awesome. jim's coming over later to hang out with us. sarah can't wait.

the cats have been sooo funny lately.

schools good. i really like my classes. i love dancing again. it feeds my soul. its wonderful.

update complete.

for whatever reason, things are going really well for me lately. or at least i'm in a better place, so things to appear to be going well... but i'm happy, even if it all is some crazy magic trick the universe is playing on me.

this is my life:
work, work, work, school, work, homework, read, read, write, dance, dance, rehearsal, rehearsal, work, work, school, wake up early early early early, go to bed late late late late, get no sleep sleep sleep.

i stayed out until 1:30 last night after working 25 hours in 3 days and woke up at 6:30 this morning to work for 5 hours today only to hang out at ween's and eat thai food and do hw and then go to rehearsal and go back to ween's and do more homework.

on a happy note, i went to the honey hole and saw sarah (girlfriend) which was perfect.

i'm soooooo sick. this semester has been terrible. something always comes up and i've had to miss so much school. this is what makes me reconsider staying in school... maybe life is trying to tell me to calm down and take some time off... i don't know. i thought i'd get a break over thanksgiving but i ended up working everyday and throwing up 4 times on my last day off before school started up again... even when i have a break, i have to work. i think it would be a good thing to finish out the year and maybe even take a few summer classes and see where i am. i don't know, i don't know.

break has been pretty wonderful so far... sleeping in, making breakfast watching tv with the kittens, shopping for ugly sweaters at value village, shopping for ingredients for tomorrows dinner... and i get to sit on some cute babies tonight for a few hours and make some money. not bad at all.

oh no. ty just had an erection.... he's now a man. well half a man, he will never have the chance to be a full man.

lola and i did something very very silly tonight.... cut my hair. it's not bad at all, it looks really light because i haven't dyed my hair in so long.... so... it's pret-hay light.